Dec 1, 2015

Ending

In a blink of an eye..

Here we are in December..

Yea, I'm still here..

Still have no where to go..

Tried going here and there..

But still ending up back here..

..

I hope you're well there..

...

Christmas is around corner..

..

I wish I didn't had to lose you as a friend..

...

...

Take care there..

Oct 13, 2015

Sulking

Hello October...

I..

can't stop sulking..

I'm sorry..

Aug 22, 2015

Swimming

I gotta keep swimming..

If I stop..

I'll sink..

I'm tired..

But I can't stop..

Jul 25, 2015

Unreal

Spending almost the whole day with you

doing the things you want to do

is more than I can ask.

Especially watching you smile

again..

So unreal yet so real..

I'm really sorry yh..

I hope we can be friends again..

Jul 9, 2015

Fear

The fear lost

is a path

to the dark side..

Jul 8, 2015

Handling

I thought I was handling things well...

Why now..

...

Jul 6, 2015

Special

There's nothing special in anything anymore..

:(

Jul 4, 2015

Traveling

Traveling with a heavy heart..

:(

Elephant


I cannot, I cannot..

I cannot live with this elephant anymore..

I want to push this elephant out!

Can you please open the door?
As it's at the other end of the elephant
and I'm stuck at this end?

Please, yh..

please..

I'm sorry, yh..

*maybe the elephant wants out too*

Jun 27, 2015

Event

Our experiences may differ even when we are in the same event..

I'm sorry I didn't take the time and understand yours..

Jun 24, 2015

Scary

It's a very scary kind of feeling...

I do still have fears...

Yh...

Jun 22, 2015

Unfair

There are about 7 billion people in the world..

Why did you have to become the victim of this bitter lesson...

It feels unfair...

It is not fair at all..

I don't want whatever this is now..

It's not fair..

I'm sorry

Jun 9, 2015

Baggages

Baggages..

I use to complain about it..

Was unhappy about it..

But I don't know why..

I got used to it..

Sad...

And tiring...

I'm sorry yh...

May 27, 2015

Reaching

Is it....

Is it reaching the end of the line already?

May 12, 2015

Misuse

With the power of influence..

I misuse it..

I'm sorry yh..

May 10, 2015

Talks

Tired..

Tired of having small talks..

so..

empty...

Miss the long meaningful tallks..

...

Why did it had to be you......

I'm sorry...

May 7, 2015

Billions

There are millions of words out there..
Billions of ways to make sentences with them..

But I am running out of words to say..

I know well that words alone
won't do anything..

But I'm not sure what else to do..

I've secretly become timid..

Afraid of making things any worse
than it already is..

I'm sorry yh..

I would do anything to have our friendship back..

May 1, 2015

Manipulated

I may settle with being manipulated..

Apr 23, 2015

Ripple

It takes almost forever for a lake to calm completely..

And the tiniest pebble to create a ripple..

Like how these memories are now..

I'm sorry yh..

I'm sorry...

Apr 21, 2015

Shell

So that I learn to have a heart..

To be more human..

To be more reachable..

Less of just an empty shell..

I'm sorry yh..

I'm sorry...

Apr 19, 2015

Undo

I'm sorry I didn't gave you a choice.

I really wished I could turn back time and undo my mistakes..

I'm really sorry yh..

Apr 15, 2015

Heavy

It's not easy to be a christian..

The cross is heavy..

I pray for strength to carry on..

I am only human..

Apr 8, 2015

Words

Words are tiring..

Words can be really really tiring..

But what do I do then?

Apr 3, 2015

Scolded

I wish you were angry at me and scolded me...

I'm sorry yh...

Mar 23, 2015

Tooooo

Do I care too much?

Like tooooo much?

Until I'm hurting myself..

How come caring too much can be hurtful?

Shouldn't it...

not hurt?

Sigh...

Mar 15, 2015

Memory

A memory so difficult to forget..

I'm sorry yh..

Sorry..

Mar 13, 2015

Well

I hope you're doing well..

Keep smiling..

Mar 11, 2015

Laughing

Another one of those rare dreams..

Blast to the past..

You were in it..

Still holding on to whatever I can remember..

You laughing, me smiling..

I hope you can see things from my end...

If I saw things from your end,...

even I would be disgust of myself..

Mar 10, 2015

Hand

I held too tight and did not let go..

and both of us got hurt..

I'm sorry yh...

This hand has learned it's lesson..

A different hand that will appreciate you much better...

I'm sorry..

I don't know what I am saying anymore..

But I really hope a miracle will happen..

And that we can be friends again..

I'm sorry yh...

Mar 4, 2015

Journey

"Are you sure you are ready to take someone on this journey?

Because if you are not..

you might kill another life.."

Sorry yh...

Mar 3, 2015

Jealousy

It was a difficult time
when I didn't know how to handle jealousy..

And I because of that, you were hurt..

Several times...

I'm sorry yh...

Feb 25, 2015

Sky

The ground is not going to get any higher
for me to reach the sky..

but...

So what if I reach the sky..

It doesn't seem to have anything above those clouds that I desire..

I'm sorry..

I'm sorry we have to go through this for me to change..

I'm sorry...

Feb 23, 2015

Important

Why is it so important to me?

I can list a thousand and one reasons
why it is important to me..

But if what is important to me does not matter to you..

That thousand and one reasons
will not mean a thing..

.....

I really want to fix things, yh..

I really do...

Please..

Feb 22, 2015

CNY

This year..

 No one climbed around my head..

They're now older and and less interested in climbing..

More interested in their gadgets and games..

There were new younger ones..

But maybe not old enough to start climbing..

Maybe soon...

Thank you for listening..

I'm sorry I didn't..

Happy CNY, yh...

Feb 17, 2015

Taunt

That feeling..

The one where you realise that
so many simple things that could've been done to prevent..

to save...

but too late..

Regrets

Guilt

They often come to taunt now..

I'm sorry yh..

Feb 16, 2015

Condolences

5 years..

They tried..

But they broke up..

Reason?

They didn't know how to save the relationship..

Maybe they're better off not being together?

maybe....

But now...

Both hearts are aching tears are flowing..

My condolences...

Feb 14, 2015

Rose

Happy Valentine's Day..

I wish I could surprise you with a rose again..

But that's the past...

Enjoy Valentine's Day..

Feb 11, 2015

Trapped

Will I forever be trapped in this past?

I'm sorry for ruining this..

I'm sorry yh..

Feb 5, 2015

Nitez

nitez

Feb 3, 2015

Pulls

Life is tough when it pulls you back
while you strive to move forward.

Worst is when you're not just moving forward
but also chasing something..

And it's moving further..

And further away..

I'm sorry yh..

Feb 1, 2015

Allow

I cannot let hate take the wheel..

I will not allow it..

No..

No matter what..

:

Jan 31, 2015

Astray

So weary..

I went astray..

I'm sorry...

I'm really sorry...

Jan 27, 2015

Path

I didn't ask for any of this..

I'm walking back...

To that path...

And hope that I'll reach
where I wanna go..

Jan 23, 2015

Treat

We treat each other differently..

when we are the same..

I'm sorry for not treating you correctly..

Jan 22, 2015

Emotions

"Remember the last time you let your emotions took over?"

That's right..

Don't forget t

Jan 21, 2015

Scent

It's amazing how a scent can remind you so much of someone..

the intimacy..

the closeness..

and the only thing to do..
 
is to hope it doesn't fade away too fast..

that it will stay as long as it can..

...

Jan 18, 2015

Belonging

Maybe what all of us really want is something tangible

like a sense of belonging...

:(

Jan 13, 2015

Workaholic

Some of us work nonstop to be rich!

Some of us work nonstop to be somebody!

Some of us work nonstop for a better future.

I keep working...

to be distracted..

..workaholic..

I hope things will be better this year..

I'm sorry..

Jan 11, 2015

Light

The light...

Looks like a better place to be right now..

...

Jan 10, 2015

Forevers

It is dark and scary..

when the forevers in this world are real..

:(

Jan 9, 2015

Ticking

Each ticking second is killing me..

I'm sorry yh..

Jan 7, 2015

Stuck

Why am I still stuck here...

:(

I'm sorry..

Jan 6, 2015

Poison

Poison..

Jan 5, 2015

Burdens

My burdens..

They keep adding

Even though I've reached my limit..

long ago..

I'm sorry..

Please help me..

Jan 3, 2015

Explode

Please stop..

I can't take in anymore of these feelings..

I might just explode..

Or drown in them..

Please stop..

Please...

Jan 2, 2015

2015

2015..

More like a continuation of 2014..

So many mixed feelings..

Sigh...

Jan 1, 2015

Cares

The more one cares..

The more pain one gets..

But why does one continue to care
even with such returns..

A fool?

I'm sorry..

Dec 31, 2014

Lock

Why is this lock open?

Dec 29, 2014

Drifting

I'm slowly drifting away...

Help me..

Why is this happening...

Dec 25, 2014

Jesus

Happy birthday Jesus.

Thank you for saving us.

Thank you for loving us.

Dec 20, 2014

Most

The day I regret the most in my entire life..

I'm sorry yh

Dec 19, 2014

Space

As I stood there..

Stared blankly into space..

Waiting for the store lady
to finish wrapping the gifts..

Fingers blindly swiping the phone..

I realize...

That I used to enjoy
buying Christmas presents..

Saving money..

Had a list of people to buy gifts for..

Hoping that the receiver will love
and enjoy the gift..

Enjoy watching them smile..

...

Now...

That fire just isn't there anymore..

Simply picking a gift that's within budget
for a gift exchange event..

Not expecting the receiver to enjoy..
 Nt looking forward to enjoy receiving..

Like a chore

..

It just sad..

...

I'm sorry yh.. 


Dec 16, 2014

Long

I know it's a long shot but...

Please be careful...

Dec 14, 2014

Photographed

The never changing moment..

That same smile that never fails..

Hearts that will never break..

Sometimes I rather be frozen in that moment..

Let it be photographed..

I'm sorry things changed because of me..

I'm sorry yh...

I hope we can be friends again..


Dec 13, 2014

Smiling

Who said smiling was easy..

It isn't only about  the muscles used..

Easier said than done..

So much of lying to the people around..

Even to yourself...

Dec 12, 2014

Perfectly

Standing beside this hole...

Throwing anything and everything I can find in it..

Hoping that I'll hear a sound
of something hitting the bottom..

But they just fall
and disappear into the darkness..

I kept thinking it was a bottomless pit..

But it's just another hole on the other end..

Like an exit..

So nothing will really matter
until I close that hole inside there first..

And I know..

What fits that hole perfectly...

Dec 11, 2014

Output

Why is it
that no matter how much of noise I input or output...

I can't drown out this feeling..

Urgh..

Hate it..

Help

Dec 9, 2014

Quicksand

Quicksand..

The more you struggle the faster you sink in it..

So I'll just wait for someone to rescue me..

Before I sink in it...

Dec 7, 2014

Joyful

December is suppose to a joyful month..

Colourful lights, decorations, smiles..

But I made it too bitter and ugly...

I hope this will change one day..

I'm sorry yh...

Dec 6, 2014

I

I kept saying we and us..

Not realising that they were actually all about I and me..

I'm sorry..

Dec 2, 2014

Shallow

No...

People don't come and go just like that..

Not all...

This is not life..

It is not that shallow..

...

I'm sorry yh..

Dec 1, 2014

Regretful

It's coming...

That very regretful day..

I'm sorry yh...

Nov 29, 2014

VBS'14

VBS'14..

Thank Jesus..

I needed it very badly..

Nov 28, 2014

Skies

I miss the bright skies..

I've been under the dark skies
for a long time...

Nov 25, 2014

Just

Some things just can't be said..

But some things don't have to be said to know..

Nov 23, 2014

Thought

The thought of you..

still comforts me..

I'm really sorry yh...

Nov 20, 2014

Correct

I'm sorry I didn't know when..

to hold on 
and
to let go

at the correct time..

I'm sorry yh..

Nov 19, 2014

Insane

I don't know whether you are keeping me sane...

Or insane...

Nov 18, 2014

Side

Here I am..

Doing what everyone what is doing to earn a living..

And there's the dark side trying to pull me over with attractive benefits..

But costing all that I've stood for..

I hope I won't fall like the last time..

I lost more than just myself..

I'm sorry..

Nov 16, 2014

Water

It's sad when you have to watch someone walk away..

Feeling helpless with so many emotions to handle..

I can't handle so many of them..

I don't know how to express all of them at the same time..

and I can't swallow them all because they're too much..

...

That's when there's nothing else you can do
but to let the water from your eyes just fall or roll on your cheek...

Hoping that they'll carry all the troubles away..

But no..

You get tired and fall asleep instead..

Waking up..
not feeling that it's a new day..
But a continuation from yesterday instead..

Today is
16th November 2014

...

Yesterday was
20th December 2010

I'm sorry yh..

Nov 14, 2014

Soul

Often times..

I get the feeling that my soul falls

when I remember a certain moment..

But my body still still..

Then the usual pain..

It's usual now..

...

 I'm sorry yh

Nov 13, 2014

Point

I've reached a point

where I just keep quiet

even when I have something to say..

Because almost everything

and anything that I wanna say

Reminds me of my actions in the past

...

And how they changed everything


...

I'm sorry yh

Nov 12, 2014

Thousand

It's like not being invited to a party that
EVERYONE'S
invited to..

and everyone just says
"It's not party, don't ask me why you're not invited."

..
but a thousand times worse..

...

I'm sorry yh..

I'm sorry for mistreating you..

Nov 11, 2014

Tougher

I don't know which is tougher..

To hold on..
or
To let go..

Please forgive me..

I'm sorry yh..

Nov 10, 2014

Cooled

Things cooled off...

But it doesn't look like it's going away..

Sorry yh..

I have to much memories with you..

Nov 8, 2014

Meaningful

It was suppose to be happy and meaningful...

....

I'm sorry I messed things up..

I'm sorry..

Nov 5, 2014

Surprising

It's surprising

how far I've been..

..with this mask..

Don't know whether it's a good thing
or a bad thing..

But I'd choose to go without it

if I have a choice..

I'm sorry yh...

Nov 3, 2014

Stranger

Let me be a stranger again..

It's easier that way..

..wayy easier...

I'm sorry yh..

Nov 2, 2014

Safe

Please be safe there..

Oct 31, 2014

Halloween

I wish it wasn't Halloween everyday...

I'm sorry yh..

Oct 29, 2014

Imagine

Sometimes..

I still imagine..

how it would be like..

if we remained friends..

..

I'm sorry I screwed things up..

I'm sorry yh..

I'm really sorry...

I hope we can be friends again soon....

Oct 27, 2014

Common

What happened to what we have in common?

I'm sorry yh...

Oct 26, 2014

Offer

I'm still sorry because I took so long to undestand..

Too long..

Too late..

I'm sorry..

I'm sorry I rejected your offer to stay as good friends..

I'm sorry for taking that offer
and throwing it back at you..

I hate what I did..

I'm really sorry yh..

I hope we can be friends again..

Oct 24, 2014

Iceberg

Do they not know
what's below the tip of the iceberg?

Have a little mercy..

Oct 23, 2014

Once

Let me sink once again..

Right now, this is too cruel..

Get me away from here..

Please help me..

I'm sorry yh..

Oct 22, 2014

Weakness

It's called weakness for a reason..

It hurts!

Felt like being bullied when I was a kid..

I couldn't do anything but pretend to smile
and listen to their song..

Others just watched silently
to not cause a scene..

I could feel the tears 
filling up behind my eyes..

It's not funny..

I need help..

Please help me, yh..

Please..

I'm really sorry...

Oct 21, 2014

Judas

See why Judas hung himself?

...

I'm sorry yh..

Please help me..

Oct 19, 2014

Sailing

It's like just sailing..

Hoping I'll reach there..

I hope I reach there soon..

I'm sorry yh..

Oct 18, 2014

Translate

Translate pictures to words..

And let the words soak and
translate into your own imagination..

"Why can't you just read?"

:l